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Well, well, well... It looks like I have finally joined the wordpress train. Check it out!!

www.jtroy.wordpress.com

There is also a link on there to my photo blog for my writing class if you'd like to check it out as well.

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Prayer... it does a spirit good.

This is a cry for help to all my hard praying friends....

I need some... Prayer that is.

My mind is about to explode with everything going on right now. I am trying to do so much in such a short amount of time. Finals are on the horizon, I have a speech on Thursday that I haven't started, I have a philosophy paper due on Tuesday that I dont want to start, and I am STRESSING OUT because I can't register for three of the classes I need for my major until January... and I have this gut feeling that they are going to fill up before I get the chance. I am going to explode...and that's just school!!

Rick and I are fervently praying about (what is now known as) Canvas Church in Savannah. We both feel that God is tugging at our hearts to be a part of (what Steve calls) the kingdom work down there... but SO much will have to change if we do decide to go. However, we both realize that if it is God's will for us to go, and that is where we are supposed to be, then our leap of faith will be rewarded. It's just one of those things where just "jumping" would not be (as Doug would say) the WISE thing to do.

There are many more things going on right now that I don't have time to talk about. (I am in class... and it's over.)

Just pray for me.

And Rick.

Pray that we will make the best decision for Christ, not for our personal gain. Pray that I wont LOSE MY MIND with all this school stuff. Pray that I will destress and be able to focus on the important things in my life.

Just Pray.

You never know when things will change...

Song for the blog of the day...
It has great significance for me right now.
And I would put the song on my player, but they don't have it.
So search for it. It's a great song.

I just saw the most amazing sunset
Well I watched as it sank into the sea
And bid another day goodbye by myself
I heard a bird sing the most beautiful song
But for the life of me, I can't remember that melody
I just remember that I had to dance alone

Oh and the days go by so fast
And the memories they never seem to last
And I'm quick to see all I don't have
I need to change the way I look at, all I look at

And soak it up
Every little bit I can
Enjoy all my day before all my days end
And whatever I get I'll always let that be enough
And never forget to soak it up
Yeah, yeah

Cause I could get caught up in this crazy race
You know the world we live in leaves no room for second place
But I've got to believe there's more to life than winning
I ain't gonna miss out on
All the beauty in my life
Like my family and my friends and my wife
All the God given gifts that money can't buy

Oh cause the days go by so fast
And the memories they never seem to last
But I'm grateful for everything I have
Cause You've changed the way I look at
All I look at

And soak it up
Every little bit I can
Enjoy all my day before all my days end
And whatever I get I'll always let that be enough
And never forget to soak it up

Ain't gonna be living tomorrows and missing today
Ain't gonna be making treasures out of things that fade away
No I'd rather be living every second
Living every minute of every single day
Oh I will

Soak it up
Every little bit I can
Enjoy all my day before all my days end
And whatever I get I'll always let that be enough
And never forget to soak it up

-Warren Barfield

Wouldn't it be nice?

I heard this song for probably the MILLIONTH time yesterday, but for the first time ever I think I actually listened to what they were saying. (Weird concept, I know. But I was on the treadmill for an hour. I had nothing else to do) So as I am listening, I realize that this song describes where Rick and I are right now PERFECTLY. How we wish we didn't have to wait so long to get married. How we wish we had more money and things could be different. And how it just gets more frustrating the more we talk about it! It was written for us!! And then I realized something else.... if this was written back when the Beach Boys did it, and soooo many people loved it then and throughout the years... THEN I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS HAD TO WAIT!! It made me feel a LOT better about our situation! So, this is now my theme song and blog song of the day. I have posted it on my playlist at the bottom of the page, so turn up your sound and enjoy it too!!

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

-Beach Boys

4...four...cuatro...

Four years ago tonight, Rick and I met for the very first time. We were introduced by Mandy and Josh, our respective best friends that were dating at the time. It's so much fun to remember what went on in the wee beginnings of our realationship.

We met at the Miss Hiram High Pageant (HAHAHAHA). I walked in, and could tell he was nervous... which made me feel a lot better because I was freaking out on the inside. (I didn't show that though) My mom was there, because she was ADAMENT about me not meeting anyone without her there... but we ended up sitting far away from her anyway, so it was ok.

I remember him being really quiet... but when he spoke, he was really funny. I remember thinking about how much he made me smile, and that still makes me smile today. He asked me for my number on a gum wrapper (that he still has)... and the rest is history!

The 25th will mark our four year anniversary. I can't believe it has been that long... but I am super excited about the next four... and the four hundred after that!

I love you Rick! Thanks for putting up with me this long! I couldn't have made it through the last four years without you! :)

It's a wonderful world... I can't feel it right now

I've been down so low
People look at me and they know
They can tell something is wrong
Like I don't belong, well

Staring through a window
Standing outside, they're just too happy to care tonight
I want to be like them
But I'll mess it up again

I tripped on my way in
And got kicked outside, everybody saw...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just wanna cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won't, I won't leave you, on your own

But who am I to dream?
Dreams are for fools, they let you down...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me, mmm

And I wish that I could make it better
I'd give anything for you to call me, maybe just a little letter
Oh, it could start again, oh oh

Well I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world

When you're with me

-James Morrison

"Wonderful World"

Busy Bee.

There are times in my life where I have been at home, sitting around, being lazy, and loving life. I got to call my friends, go to dinner, hang out with my family. Life is so much easier at those times.

And then you have times like now. Times where you are CONSTANTLY on the run. Work, school, friends, family, relationships... I feel like I am always doing SOMETHING. And when I finally get to sit down and kick off my shoes, my mind is still racing about all the things that need to be completed.

I have been home one night this week. And I spent it doing homework. But tomorrow, I have nothing to do and it is going to be incredible.

I guess what I am trying to say is... I am exhausted. And it is not going to get any better as I get older and get more responisibilities.

But I will keep pushing on. Bring it on Busy Bee. Bring.... It..... On.