Hallelujah!

"Somehow everything's gonna fall right in to place. If we only had a way to make it all fall faster every day."

If there was one thing that would make me happier than anything at this moment in my life, it would be starting my life with the one person that I love more than all the sand on all the shores. It's a cliche really to say that he is "the best thing that has ever happened to me" but, other than having a relationship with Jesus, he really is the best thing in my life. And the best part is, it really does get better as each day goes by. He is the love of my life.... even though that is kind of cliche too.

"This time we're not giving up. Let's make this last forever. Screamin' Hallelujah!

We'll make it last forever."

We just recently celebrated our 3 year 9 month "monthaversary" and as the days pass it is still hard to believe that we have been together that long. Yes, we have our days that we act like an old married couple that bickers and argues. But then there are those days that everything is just like it was when we first met. Those days that we are so in love it's sickening to those around us. It's like we have an unexplainable connection with one another that is unlike any other. It's that "can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars over the fence, world series kind of love (It Takes Two)."

"Holding on to patience wearing thin. I can't force these eyes to see the end. If only time flew like a dove... we could watch it fly, and just keep looking up."

We are at a point in our lives where we are constantly growing and learning new things about life, about ourselves, and about each other. And there is a longing inside of me that wants to experience those things not just "with" him, but as his partner in crime, his counterpart, his wife. There is nothing that I want more than that right now. And it's hard. Because I know that we have to wait. If we were to get married now, we would be very poor. It would be very very hard to make it. And we both know that when our time comes, it will be great and the best time for us. It will be the time that God wants us to go by. God's time, our time... to shine.

"Got nothin' but time on our hands. Got nothin' but, got nothin' but... got nothin' but time on our hands"

I know that him and I will be together until the day we die. And as much as I want to speak those vows in front of a crowd of people and God alike, I have come to the realization that knowing them in my heart are just as important. I don't need a ring and a marriage license to give me that assurance. One day it will happen... just not today. And I am 100% ok with that.

I love you honey. And I will wait for us as long as it takes. I just want to be with you, be happy, and be in love.... and I think we have that all under control. You make me happier than I could have ever imagined I could be. You have my heart, forever and for always.

"This time we're not giving up.
Let's make it last forever.
Screamin' Hallelujah! Hallelujah!"

-Paramore