You gotta start somewhere...

First blog. Well... my first REAL blog.

I used to have a Xanga that I wrote on everyday. Xanga quickly got faded out by myspace however, and until now, all my thoughts were floating around wildly in my head. True, I could write them down on paper, but why? Why waste the arm power? Everyone else in America does this on a computer... shouldn't I??

Isn't that incredible? Humans, particularly those that don't have to hunt for their food or build their own living quarters, have become genuinely lazy. Back in "the old days" you had to walk everywhere you went, pick your own corn to eat, build your own house out of wood and sticks.... and no one complained. That was life. Now, we have mechanics that do all that stuff for us. I found a place online the other day that will deliver your groceries to you... and another that cooks your meals and you pick them up on the way home. So not only do we have cars and planes to take us to our destinations, or computers to type our thoughts on screen, now we have people that do not cook their own meals, but yet rely on others to do so. Lazy. And people wonder why America is obese.

Sometimes, however, laziness is welcomed greatly. It seemed that I was running myself ragged. I had school 2 days a week, and I worried about homework and due dates the other 5 days. I had a job, bills, stress with that. I am helping CATR on Sundays, and had to be there at 7 am every Sunday. I have a family, a boyfriend, his family, friends to keep up with... and I spent most of my days trying to juggle all my stresses while trying to make others happy and juggle theirs. I woke up tired every morning, and went to bed at 9:30 on Friday nights instead of hanging out with friends or going out on a date. I am 18 years old. Not 68. SOOO when I had my surgery, I was forced to be lazy. I have been out of work for about 6 weeks now... and on days that I am not at school, I basically sit around the house, clean up, get things done that I otherwise would not have time to do... I make time for me. Sadly enough, it has been quite a while since I have had some "me" time. Being "lazy" lately, has been a God sent blessing.

Unfortunately, real life is going to kick back in soon. School will be over in 2 weeks, and I am going to have to get a job. Hopefully I will be able to find one... I am kind of nervous about that. But I need to realize that whatever God wants to happen will happen. You hear all the time, "just trust God. Don't worry about it. Things will happen as they are supposed to happen." Honestly... easier said than done. But, I am slowly learning that whether I trust God and His ways or not, He is still going to have the last word. Wouldn't it just be easier to let go if they are going to happen that way anyway?

I guess I should quit my ramblings and get back to "paying attention" in class. Once again, easier said than done.