I can't sleep.
Ok.. I know... "But JoLynn, it's 5:30 in the afternoon! Why would you be sleeping?" Generally, I take an afternoon nap when Rick gets home from work. Earlier today if you would have asked me if I would be catching zzzz's this afternoon, I would have exclaimed my affirmative answer on the matter. Now, however, I just can't seem to get all these thoughts out of my head. Definitely can't get them out enough to fall into peaceful slumber.
Why her? She has so much potential in life. Why did she have to rush into all these things? All actions have consequences... but hers are piling up all at the same time. Why now? It breaks my heart to see her in such a treacherous condition. As much as I try to deny it, I care for her very deeply. And I want the best for her.
I know it is in no way my fault. But in some weird way, I kinda feel like I could have helped her better... somehow... someway. I feel like I let her down. Did I warn her enough? Did I help her see all the options? Was I there for her like I should have been??
Better Question:: Am I there for her now, when she needs it most?
I need sleep. I need rest.
I need peace.
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All we can do is act in the now. We can dwell in the past but all it will do is waste our future. God has a reason for everything. Nothing comes at us without something to learn or some choice to make. I am here for you and I know that with love and prayer things will change...maybe not for our benefit but for His!!
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